it's actually happening :) i'm cooking my lunch of chicken nuggets and in a few short hours i will be driving up pancake rd. in plumtree, nc! i am utterly and wonderfully excited! it finally came, the excitment that is.
as odd as it sounds, it has been REALLY hard to get excited about camp. which is weird and new for me. excitment for camp and ministry have always come so naturally for me, but this time around it has been far from that. it is almost as if i have had to force myself to be excited for camp. it has been troubling me. i have felt like something is wrong with me! so what can it be? what could possibly be holding me back from being excited about finally being able to make the drive to tvr? my first response and answer for this was the obvious...STRESS. helllooo, it makes since right?! i'm getting MARRIED in august and i'm going to be GONE for EIGHT WEEKS STRAIGHT! but i don't think stress is the answer. i have a lot of my wedding stuff done. yeah, there's a lot to be done still, but my honest mindset about the wedding is "no matter what happens and what doesn't happen, regardless i'm marrying my best friend in august." so stress about the wedding has honestly been absent. so what could it be? my second answer was time just snuck up on me. i mean, it would make since! i have been SUPER busy, non-stop basically...so to say june 6th got here before i knew it would be an understatement! but, that still wouldn't explain why i'm not excited about camp.
then when i least expected it, the answer camp. through sunday school. through bobby smith :) since i decided to go to camp, i've had a lot of people tell me that i'm not being smart. that going to camp with a wedding on the horizon is dumb. that i have too much to do to take on such a task as camp. and i think that's where this unexcitment has developed from. I corinthians 1:18 says, "for the word of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God." those who do not understand this obsession of mine for seeing my culture impacted for christ will not understand. i would even venture to guess some people think i'm being foolish for going to camp. but here's what i've realized, i can never be foolish for following God. and i can NEVER be foolish for having a burden and obsession for reaching teens. this is not my life, and i am NOT in control of it. because of that, everything that i want is secondary, including a wedding. now, marrying Jared is something i feel God is calling me to, so the marriage itself is not secondary, but the wedding is. i don't have to have a wedding with the details all ironed out to please God. but to please God, i must be at tvr this summer. to the world what i'm doing may be foolish, but to God what i'm doing is being obediant.
i have let go of all the comments and mindsets that people have placed in my head and i am clinging to what God has taught me, and ONLY that. i am excited about camp, and i am not ashamed of it. i am thrilled that once more in my life God has given me the opportunity to serve and has chosen me. now what i'm asking of you is to support me. i want people in my lives who support me chosing God. no one of us is the holy spirit, and no one of us can trump what God tells us to do.
as for me, i am following God, and he is going to work out the rest. i have faith in that.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
the calm before the storm
i've decided to make this blog to keep you updated on my summer and to better inform you on how to pray for me and TVR and the ministry happening there!
THREE weeks from now i will be in good ol' plumtree, nc doing my best to learn all the new staff's names (that's a prayer request in and of itself! i'm AWFUL with names!). I could NOT be more excited! This past semester was a difficult semester, with a full load taking 18 credits (in college lingo, that's A LOT!) so a lot got pushed to the back burner, including this summer and my wedding at the end of the summer. but the semester is OVER and wedding plans are in full swing (if i have to tie another bow i will scream!) and camp is closer than ever! i started my day off today by taking the time to pray about life and this summer. i realized there is so much i have going on in life right now and how i haven't really had time to let the magnitute of the ministry i will have this summer sink in. well, this morning i woke up with that burden heavy on my mind. starting today i am committing to pray everyday for summer camp! dr. jerry falwell used to say, "nothing of eternal significance happens outside of prayer." amen and amen! and because i believe in that so much i am commiting to surrounding this ministry in prayer! and i challenge you to join me! pray for every aspect of camp you can think of, to help you get started, here are some things to pray for!
-safety. if safety doesn't happen, ministry doesn't happen
-open hearts of campers
-a humbled staff
-commited leaders
-head staff. they have a lot of responsibility
-finances for everyone. staff and camp
-the program
-the speakers
these are just a few things to get you started!
a personal request you can pray for is me and my heart. this summer will easily be one of the best and most challenging summers i face. i will have so many distractions constantly pulling at me; a wedding, finances, my fiance (lord knows i'm going to miss him a ton!), school. if i for one second take my eyes off of christ, i will fall flat on my face. pray that i will constantly be reminded that nothing matters except for him. all i have to do is focus on him, and he will take care of the rest! also pray for my heart, that God will somehow begin to prepare my heart for the tough situations i will face this summer. and that God will begin to purify my heart for this ministry. i so badly just desire to be a vessel of him, but so often my flesh gets in the way of that. pray that that will not be the case.
thank you so much for all of your prayers and support.
i am sendidng out support letters this week. so if you want me to send you one, give me your address! my email is angodfrey@liberty.edu
the soon to be mrs. roberts!
THREE weeks from now i will be in good ol' plumtree, nc doing my best to learn all the new staff's names (that's a prayer request in and of itself! i'm AWFUL with names!). I could NOT be more excited! This past semester was a difficult semester, with a full load taking 18 credits (in college lingo, that's A LOT!) so a lot got pushed to the back burner, including this summer and my wedding at the end of the summer. but the semester is OVER and wedding plans are in full swing (if i have to tie another bow i will scream!) and camp is closer than ever! i started my day off today by taking the time to pray about life and this summer. i realized there is so much i have going on in life right now and how i haven't really had time to let the magnitute of the ministry i will have this summer sink in. well, this morning i woke up with that burden heavy on my mind. starting today i am committing to pray everyday for summer camp! dr. jerry falwell used to say, "nothing of eternal significance happens outside of prayer." amen and amen! and because i believe in that so much i am commiting to surrounding this ministry in prayer! and i challenge you to join me! pray for every aspect of camp you can think of, to help you get started, here are some things to pray for!
-safety. if safety doesn't happen, ministry doesn't happen
-open hearts of campers
-a humbled staff
-commited leaders
-head staff. they have a lot of responsibility
-finances for everyone. staff and camp
-the program
-the speakers
these are just a few things to get you started!
a personal request you can pray for is me and my heart. this summer will easily be one of the best and most challenging summers i face. i will have so many distractions constantly pulling at me; a wedding, finances, my fiance (lord knows i'm going to miss him a ton!), school. if i for one second take my eyes off of christ, i will fall flat on my face. pray that i will constantly be reminded that nothing matters except for him. all i have to do is focus on him, and he will take care of the rest! also pray for my heart, that God will somehow begin to prepare my heart for the tough situations i will face this summer. and that God will begin to purify my heart for this ministry. i so badly just desire to be a vessel of him, but so often my flesh gets in the way of that. pray that that will not be the case.
thank you so much for all of your prayers and support.
i am sendidng out support letters this week. so if you want me to send you one, give me your address! my email is angodfrey@liberty.edu
the soon to be mrs. roberts!
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